Day 26....Yay for me!!
I have been through a life-changing experience.
Curveballs will come and will visit time and time again. Maybe you haven't reached this stage yet, but it will happen. Wouldn't it be nice if we knew the curveballs were coming and could be a little prepared? And when it does... There are no rules. No one grieves the same. When a child dies before you it is like nature is backwards. My life will never be the same. My constant companion is grief.
My daughter was an organ donor. Her eyes gave sight to someone, her lungs breathe now in someone else's body, and her skin is on someone else's body.
Zone...the Twilight Zone
I am still in the twilight zone. Being by myself is easy not that I like it. I become lost in a memory and I can't hold back the tears. I get lost in the sadness.
Someday this will make sense. I keep reminding myself that things happen for a reason. Jesus said, "I've said these things to you so that you will have peace in me. In the world you have distress. But be encouraged! I have conquered the world." (John 16:33) There is no way to handle the curveballs of life without God's help. God will never leave you.
My daughter was a part of me and when she died, a part of me died with her. I will grieve for a lifetime while I am here on this planet. Grief keeps on grieving. Period.