My life has been completely shaken up, changed, and rearranged. Thinking about a new beginning is because of my painful ending. I know I have to get out of this rut and begin to live; as much as I wanted the world to stop; it didn't.
Late one evening I began talking to myself and feeling down. It is just me...so I really don't have anyone to encourage me. I began thinking, What can I do?
Here are the things I have been doing:
Get out of the house!!! I go to school (teach part-time), to church, and maybe to pick up something quick from the grocery store and that is about it. These walls were caving in on me. I began walking in the town park again...(it was hard walking by myself). Even on cool days when it is too cool to walk at the park, I walk around my house. Many times I stand in my driveway and watch traffic go by. I contacted a friend and we had lunch one afternoon.
I have never been a person who journals, but I began. When I can't sleep (which is most nights) because my brain won't turn off (constantly on repeat), I start writing. I write down everything I am thinking. Just dump my brain.
My morning devotions have been a part of my routine for years. I have been studying the book of Psalms. Crying out to God and praising HIM each morning is how I begin my days.
I have always been a reader, but I always read for pleasure. Now, I read about people who demonstrated huge amounts of faith in trying times while going through their own personal trials. I ain't the only one, ya'll!!
Even though, there are some things I have started doing, I will praise God in this storm. He is my inspiration as I begin my new beginning.