It is easy to reflect on all of our mistakes and all that didn't go as planned. Continuously reflecting on all my mistakes or my turmoil/hardships is not healthy. Don't get me wrong, it is okay to remember the struggle and pain one experiences, but not to dwell on these experiences. I was beating myself down.
What can I do differently? Reflect on all the blessings I experience and all the stuff that goes right. Begin a new reflection which will make me aware of how I am feeling. Where I am now isn't where I will always be.
Today's blessings...I held my tongue, no road rage, talked to friends, watched a ballgame (in person ) last night, didn't spill the container of gas in my truck, looking forward to my Bible Study tonight (which is a huge blessing) , was comforted by a person who went through the loss of a child as I did, had lunch with a friend, etc.
Tomorrow is a new day and the slate is wiped clean for more blessings to flow.