My husband passed away in 2018; we were married 37 years. I leaned a lot on my husband for car maintenance, house repairs, yard work, decisions I needed to hash out , and other stuff that would need tending.
Now it is only me. Let me tell you, I freak out when something breaks; I mean I literally make myself sick! Possible scenarios of things that could happen run through my mind. FEAR...Example...when I had to go and get gas for my lawn mower, I became petrified. Can I fill up the gas container without spilling gas everywhere?, Am I able to carry the container of gas?, Can I secure the container correctly in the truck so if I hit a bump ( I know I will) in the road the gas won't turn over and gas spill out in the bed of the truck?, What if someone hits me, will I blow up? This probably sounds crazy to most, but I had these genuine fears.
I am not even going to mention the strange noises I hear in the middle of the night. I tell ya'll there are some strange noises in my house in the wee hours of the morning.
A healthy fear can keep me from harm. But I was learning to be afraid; my mind was creating most of these fears which isn't healthy. Was I going to live in a constant state of fear? OR learn to let go of some of the fears that were created in my mind?
"Don't fear, because I am with you; don't be afraid; for I am your God..." (Isaiah 41:10)
As I begin to enjoy life, I pray God will quiet my fears.
I think worry and fear are ongoing struggles for many of us. I pray against it regularly and have memorized verses to say when I feel it rear it's head. That has really helped.ReplyDelete