It has been a few weeks....
This Cancer journey is a roller coaster of emotions....and it sucks!!!
Hub had a pretty good Labor Day.. He was able to enjoy the festivities for two nights and even attended a high school football game!! I am so happy when he has good days.
Friday, September 7th, we traveled back to Duke. He was scheduled for the second phase of the radioembolization. They took him back a little after seven that morning....and he was discharged at 2pm that evening.
I can see a change in husband...not only physically ( he is still losing weight...weighs 149lbs and weighed 187 in April) but emotionally as well. I believe he is getting tired of fighting even though I encourage him daily and try to make things easier for him. He isn't his happy, jolly self...he tries to put up a front, but I know...I know the pain, the heartache he is feeling.
I have faith, but it is days like this...I question...Where Are You God? Are You Listening? I know you have seen my tears and heard my prayers as I cry out to you. I know your timing is perfect, but I still question. I see my husband suffer daily...cancer who would have thought...he was the healthy one in the family...exercised, ate right, was the peace maker...and a great person...Now Cancer has Sucked this out of him!! I hate Cancer!!!
Today hasn't been a good day....Hopefully Tomorrow will be better.