Roller Coaster

It has been a few weeks....
This Cancer journey is a roller coaster of emotions....and it sucks!!!

Hub had a pretty good Labor Day.. He was able to enjoy the festivities for two nights and even attended a high school football game!!  I am so happy when he has good days.

Friday, September 7th, we traveled back to Duke.  He was scheduled for the second phase of the radioembolization.  They took him back a little after seven that morning....and he was discharged at 2pm that evening. 

I can see a change in husband...not only physically ( he is still losing weight...weighs 149lbs and weighed 187 in April) but emotionally as well.  I believe he is getting tired of fighting even though I encourage him daily and try to make things easier for him.  He isn't his happy, jolly self...he tries to put up a front, but I know...I know the pain, the heartache he is feeling. 

I have faith, but it is days like this...I question...Where Are You God?  Are You Listening?  I know you have seen my tears and heard my prayers as I cry out to you.  I know your timing is perfect, but I still question.  I see my husband suffer daily...cancer who would have thought...he was the healthy one in the family...exercised, ate right, was the peace maker...and a great person...Now Cancer has Sucked this out of him!!  I hate Cancer!!!

Today hasn't been a good day....Hopefully Tomorrow will be better.